It's Another...

BOY!!!

Once again, we were so sure it'd be a girl...and he very clearly isn't. He had no qualms about letting us see his boyness.

Oh no. He was flaunting it. Guess he didn't want to be named Cinderella ;)

Emma's response to the news was epic:
"No I don't want it to be a boy. I want it to be a girl! Change it!!"

I cracked up laughing. It was either that or cry because...I felt the same way.

I really really really wanted another girl. Still do. I can't say I'm not disappointed. And I feel horribly guilty about wishing this baby wasn't a boy.

I'm trying to focus on the positives. It'll be good for Hyrum to have a little brother, someone to wrestle and get muddy with while being stuck with Mom all day. Emma and I will be that much closer and have the mother-daughter bond I've always wanted. And someday we will have another girl. Hopefully the next baby because I don't know how many boys in a row I can handle. I'm not even sure I can handle 2 yet.

Just when I think I've accepted the fact, something smacks me right in the face to tell me I haven't completely embraced the truth that I'm having another boy. Someone posting that they're having a girl. Seeing all those cute baby girl clothes at the store. Friends cuddling their newborn daughters. Pulling up my ultrasound pictures to prepare this post. Which is why it's taken me 3 weeks to announce it on my blog.

I feel guilty for being disappointed. I don't want my poor unborn son to think his own mother didn't want him. I don't want him to read my journal entries about how I wanted a girl and was sad that it was a boy instead. I never want him to feel like I don't want him. I do want him.

And once he's here I'll know that we needed another boy, that he was meant to come to our family now, that everything is as it should be.

John and Emma are both more accepting than I am. Emma keeps telling me how she's going to help change his diaper, feed him (good luck with that...), bathe him, dress him...she's so sweet about it. She's such a great big sister already and I love how much she wants to help me take care of her new brother.

As for our new little guy, he's doing great. He's perfectly on track for his due date. Wouldn't it be funny if he joined his siblings in the due date birthday club? I wouldn't be surprised, actually. I'm kind of expecting it. But of course, he'll come when he's ready.

He measured in the 57-59th percentile for his gestational age. A little on the big side, but hopefully he won't take after his big brother on birth weight. I don't really want to push out an almost 10 pound baby again thanks. I'm trying to eat healthier to prevent that. I think being due right after Christmas last time didn't help...what with all the yummy holiday treats everyone kept bringing us. I'm aiming for the 7 pound range this time :)

The best part, however, was that after they did the regular ultrasound with all the measuring and gender identifying and such, they switched to 3D!! We got to see our little guy in 3D!



Isn't he adorable? He kept his face snuggled against the placenta, so we couldn't get a great shot of him. He wiggles around a lot, so that kind of surprised me.

We're making progress on getting all the things ready we need for this little boy. We have the van now. We already have a car seat (it's good till 2013 - did you know car seats expire? I'm planning a big post on car seat safety in the nearish future). We have baby boy clothes, though most of them are hand-me-downs or consignment finds since I never got a baby shower with Hyrum. We have blankets.

We inherited a dresser from my grandparents, which we're in the process of fixing up - all it needs now is the clear protective coat for the stain. I'll post more about that project later, too. We have a bed for him. Poor kid will be in a pink Pack N Play for the first 7 months. Hey, it's what we've got and we don't have room or money for another crib or to switch Hyrum up to a big boy bed. We're moving next April anyway (when he'll be 7 months old). So those transitions will happen then.

Honestly, we already have most everything we'd need. I'd like a few more cute outfits for him, but the only thing we really need is another swing. You know, since Emma broke it last summer...

And of course diapers and wipes. Those are always needed. I think I want to at least test out cloth...we'll see how that adventure goes. I'm lazy and am so sick of poop, but I know that will save us a ton of money so I'm willing to at least try it. Especially since I have friends who've offered to make some diapers for me to test out. I'll pay for them, of course, but it's a ton cheaper than vendor cloth diapers. So...we'll see.

As for names...we don't know yet. We have a few names bouncing around in our minds, but neither of us are sure if they're right for this baby. It took us forever to pick Hyrum's name, whereas with Emma we had her name picked out by 11 weeks. We'll see what this little guy wants to be named. Suggestions are welcome :)